For You Who Hurt my Feelings

life sucks when you think it does

2008-06-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

this teenage boy woke up on a sunday, let us not say he is an extra ordinary boy, a boy none the less. the voice of his parents continuous arguement had kept him up the last 3 hours. it was 5am and he had not been asked to sleep. luckily for him it was the holidays however soon they were going to come.

the next day he woke up, soon he was sitting up then triumphently on his feet. before he knew it he lay with his back again. thinking to himself, "how did I get here?" with a smirk to himself.

after rolling around for another hour he felt determined to get out of bed. surprisingly he made it out into the kitchen and gave a frown to himself, as though to ponder his recent achievement 'reached kitchen from bed in one try'. he imagined a gold plated trophy in a glass cabinet along with all his other achievements. he leaned over to the microwave oven with a grin on his face. taking a plate of his breakfast out onto the dining table, switching on the television he tucked into his breakfast almost oblivious to the food that so casually entered his mouth in hand fulls.

Jason was one of three children, he was the youngest, his brother was abroad doing his studies and his 2nd brother in junior college sadly he was doing his second year of secondary school. his mother worked at the local ice skating rink and his father worked as a business man selling tea. eating his food he was so thankful for his loving and caring selfless thoughtful; maid that cooked the food. then thought of how his mother would never do such a thing.as soon as the next spoon of rice entered his mouth he suddenly stoned, he still had to decide what his schedule was today. the warm feeling on the roof of his mouth made him think harder. when his tongue touched the food he realised it was ginger and spat it out.

turning off the television he strolled over to his computer, somehow his computer's aura would give off highness, almost like cigarettes it was addictive too. Jason had a routine, sitting down he checked his instant messaging account then to his myspace profile to leave comments on other people's profiles. there were a certain type of etiquette that had to maintained if not you were either scolded or ignored for not doing these measures. in the instant messaging engine you must not 'dao' dao is a word in chinese dialect to express ignorance usually in a bad context.

XANGA.COM/HALLMAN21

2008-06-12T13:51:00.002+08:00

i got a cooler blog at xanga anyway.. haha sigh it's like no one likes blogspot anymore what's up man.. ironically i had just posted at xanga too. my gosh i love that 70s show it's super funny but the 8th season got no eric -.- stupid stupid writer's. i guess im in a good mood today... ran out of things to say. oh yeah anyway i just got to say, if you're sad actually no one in the world cares so don't burden others

you dont want to feel my wrath

2008-06-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

fade to black-metalica

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this Can t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he 's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
No, I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye

do you care or think of me

2008-06-04T22:39:00.001+08:00

got man of the match against the aussies on monday got like plaque all quite xiong. yeah that's about it. a lot of people are leaving singapore im left all alone here.

i wished someone would look me in the eye and tell me..

2008-05-30T13:08:00.002+08:00

hmm i like this blogger thing it saves my post even if later i do something stupid.
i going to get some perscription like sunglasses im so excited but it cost 300 -_-. like what the pong right... =D but someone made me a happy man on the 27th. life's god just need to be a bit more thankful. and need to read a lot. tuition is still there hur. oh yes i found out the band isn't west bound but west grand boulevard^^ i feel like such a turd. be happy ppl

wa someone tag my board leh plsss

2008-05-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

ah i did not do really anything today i woke up at 1 then yeah.

Mad4Math June holiday timetable

2008-05-17T12:42:00.002+08:00

the title has no connection to the post.
well today i was supposed to go to dare but i didn't.
cause right no one else was going so otherwise it would be weird right.
hmm i was just like thinking yesterday...
forget it haha. going to rock on myanmar today
don't know what to expect.

what am i to you

2008-05-12T20:10:00.002+08:00

i realise that this whole world is ALL about outward appearance. no one really cares about how you are inside and those who do... well i haven't done research that far. but i must give fair judgement there isn't much of them though. actually im not one to say. well today my post sucks. i just think i suck and so does everyone else.

when i close my eyes i feel you, but i dont cause im scared

2008-05-06T14:54:00.002+08:00

today between papers i sat in the auditorium upper deck :) got air-condition so cool!
then the door was ajar though not all the way so once a while there was that beam of light.
i was so derpressed from the A math paper. i guess i told my self it was got with his pillar of guidance.

went out with some one... no details on who la
let us call her person A
then blah blah agreed to study.
aiya i realised this story is quite long.
i used to like her and shit.
hadn't seen her b4 i know how do you like someone you never see b4.
don't judge me. well i know you did ready so what can i do?
okay then went out saw her.
then i remembered her i used to like her in like primary school b4 =.=
made me feel even worse.
i liked her 3 times b4.
what a waste of my life then blah blah
went out study.
then half way through i was sad
dono just something in me got so sad
like out of no where i understood something that i didnt know
i think i just found out what i always expected.
she was that person who hurt my feelings in the first place.
dont get me wrong she is hot and smart all but the knowing of what she did to me did not go away. so much spite :S ?
it just assured my hopes in person B.

This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"

it's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do

i was reading a friend's blog then they used to be super emo but now their not! :D wa its really good to know that haha.

i gave my heart to so many there's nothing left

2008-05-02T18:32:00.002+08:00

what? no abby they are not directed at you you self centred cock. lol jk
hmm exams are interesting...
i had like a major melt down yesterday.
nothing seems to be working to help me
i am really so agitated
yesterday i was so screwed up i couldn't think properly
you know that feeling when you breathe in hard and fast.
yeah that.
oh i played basketball today. helped me realise i suck
went on my old account for a while and whao so many people
it seems like ages ago.
feels like if i fail i let so many people down.
but i think it's only me.
cause no one seems to be pushing me to do well
not even my mother believe that? lol
it's like when i hope there's a person there to say to me like hey its alright.

although now that i think of it. it's just that one person maybe.
not anyone else. because really when it's from anyone else. no offense it falls on deff shit i dono how to spell it the one you cannot hear lol.
it's acceptance from the i love.
so many times i'd be debating in my head why she is the one.
so many other girls
but im devouted to this one.
maybe it's too early
i should wait.
everytime i see a couple or even old parents i think to myself
why cant i have that.
then i think about school and how everone doesn't.
that's my predicament if anyone else can live without one why cant i?
what's in me that want's this.

i hate myself i despise myself when i think these things over god you know im like thinking why why am i such a worldly being then i think well didn't god make my wordly being like this?
blesfemy whatever the word is bliss ignorance. i pray for wisdom. and the lord's will to be done. though when bad things happen is it the will of the lord?
then again is the sinning of man the genesis of it all was it the will of god?
no it is not
then we ask why why did god give us free will to sin against him.
why cant he have robots.
maybe to see how much we love him with all the bad times.
maybe he wants us to suffers as others may see it
i am saddened when i see others sinning still myself i feel like hurting myself when i sin.
woe(super cool conjuction used^^) if you continue as such you will dye.
not having life any more.
good.
but what if i say you will die forever. how simple hell that's the bottom line it's not like you die its it or you are made to do bad things. it's like worse than the worse feeling of ever you felt. haha whatever. you cannot dye more in hell from the inside you you burn try to kill yourself you cant cause you are dead. filled with guilt anger any thing wrong you feel. this has no purpose in evangelism but it's all im saying. just don t do bad things.?

im always there for you but you're never there for me

2008-04-20T22:27:00.003+08:00

AH exams! ):
i feel like dying really please la man
i wish the exams were over.
i really feel like working all this is so pointless
no one cares
no one wants to tell me why i should care
forget it
i cant tell anyone how i feel
this is almost the first time im sharing this
and with the computer nice...
i can't tell anyone but still everyone will read it.
like what the pong.
haha im changing cell!
but the only reason im changing is because
of who is leading it
like it's more cell driven
rather than leader driven.

take it away xunwei.

dear journal,
xunwei here again. posers and shit eh? its so pissing. there was the sc carnival and ALL the posers went. well i can just remember last year i used to like this girl but then she wouldn't let me meet her or anything all i did all for this person. all i asked was to see her. she wouldn't oblige. it destroyed me my world crumbled, am i not good enough? is everything i do something to be hated by her. so i am not good enough i got it. i suck that's it isn't it. have you heard the phrase if you cant be mine i can't be your friend. or something along those lines? applies so directly.
then just this past weeks all my friends saw her. woah doesn't that rock. im so pissed. everyone is treating my like shit friends? i can't trust anyone! i had another 'friend' if that's what you call it. i bought them a shirt that was the most expensive present ever bought for 'im and what did i get back.. chocolates :D like a dog you know i feel like a dog nie a stray mongrel! my love is lost. oh world fail me again

i feel all warm inside :D

2008-04-13T19:11:00.002+08:00

hey i just woke up realising that maybe i should put my ambitions in this girl
but not like now maybe when im really old like 30 or something :s
haha okay maybe not so old la but you get it.
the thing is i just don't want the thing to happen like my previous crush.
oh yeah im sorry what i was like today cara you just reminded me of Abby it won't happen again.
i want to get iPhone.
i should study sigh but im not.
i remeber last year i studied with a FRIEND. i won't say who.
oh my goodness im so happy i know who i love now :DDDD

James 3:17 love is pure

2008-04-10T22:03:00.002+08:00

what does that mean love must be pure like dood what really.
haha nevermindd.
im so emo a bit la at least and now that i think of it is because i feel like the weight of the world on my shoulders.
everytime i do something wrong i feel like im like destroyed and condemed by the world how freaky is that.
i also got a self esteem issue again.
watching definitely maybe made it worse.
"why can't someone like me"
hmm whatever life is like that times are hard.

'swear to shake it up if you swear to listen we're still so young desperate for attention'

2008-03-27T21:33:00.002+08:00

bleah i dont care lah i can do my work. hmm panic at the disco <3
i am so happy everyone has forgotten about them.
its time to remeniece or however you spell it.
the sweet smell of inde music its refreshing
where there is no trivial matters
people aren't so hurtful
im not saying you guys do it purposely alright
haha i know if i were not here not like dead
but if i was invisible no one cares.
who needs me
i have been fighting battles in my head
god and the devil.
no one saves me cause im just 'that guy'.
im not asking for sympathy nor am i saying that everyone is a pig.
its just things aren't falling in place.
and nevermind why would all of you want to hear my troubles i won't waste your time.

oh! gravity

2008-03-22T16:15:00.002+08:00

hi people i daoed abby yesterday and it just so happened i got pangseo-ed by my sunday school friends on the same day what are the odds? :D well it just tells me about friends right. JUST STICK WITH THE RUGGERS ^^ so i got geog work to do..... nothing much life is good im very free haha but you know since no one contacts me at all? yeah actually i find myself being the one calling people or whatever? it would seem that i suck so bad no one calls me? well haha whoohoo god rocks. switchfoot is sick yeah? i dont want school to hurt me too bad... :S oh well no xunwei today.
just me sorry guys.

i am me no one sees me-

herburt i need to teach you new tricks

2008-03-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

i need to teach herburt new tricks
well its rather i need to teach myself some new songs
oh my goodness
i still need to get the john mayer cd
D: im so sad
my tv downstairs is spoiled.
sigh isn't that sad.
oh yes camp was good i loved my group
it was so guai i loved the QTs
and grr its so hard to focus on god in school
im pissed kenneth made me miss tuition
that doggg

dear friends

XunWei here
its been a long tiring week i find myself sleeping more than anything else this week. so i have been thinking of trish a lot since we broke up its not really bothered me at all but now i saw her walk to the mall and friends are starting talk about her again. i dont hate her. i hated her for not liking me. it is me all me. she seemed so angelic as she strolled... whatever if i didnt know better i would label her the devil. she was to me because it brought me away from life. the teenage life the chemical reactions in your body. the dullness of a pencil. i need rejuvination bring me out air me love me.

yours sincerely
your mortal

we will rock you

2008-03-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

okay sec 1-3 is coming
had chalet
there was alchohol
how about just a friggin bottle of vodka-_-
and there were fake drunks
what losers
cant take the heat
dont drink.
sian all the retards are in my group for camp
im angry and bored
i like element td!
i cant believe it steve is now charles
but surprise surprise
his smile broke in school
not by me
and i nvr did it
it pisses me off i nvr felt like i lost something so dear to me not just because my mom would scold me
im SO angry.
sigh i love you god he's been gracious to me

meet Xun Wei

he hates liars and thinks everyone is very greedy and self centered.
he has gone through the thick and thin of the exciting life.
the smokes the drink the figgin retarded ass girls.
xunwei despised the guys who wanted to be like this.
because he knew they did not know any of it.

times when his mother scolds him he covers his ears to drown out the sound
in his mind he is trying to fight the temptation to answer back.
"pls go away go away" the phrase rings in his head.
like the Hulk he is cool.

catch another anecdote of Xun Wei.

i want to scream at the top of my lungs.

2008-02-25T17:11:00.002+08:00

i love john mayer now man in love in love

i need to get down to buying one of his albums but got no time.

grr i should be like doing my work now lah

sigh

hmm i dono whether i should call abby as often as i do

i sort of thinks she cant bother about me anymore so yeah.

woah was fusion boring

but tuition rocked haha

the stupid zhende isnt helping me with the tuition thing at all

what a flacid cock ^^

well sucks he has to train with b div >:(

anyway though its been rough im still waiting(refer to previous post) cause im so in love.

aha JOKE

oh yes my brother got me george's brother so cute! i wuv him soooo cuteeee. i named him steve

-_-

grr i guess i should study now.

emily

2008-02-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

i will wait for you no matter how long it will take i may or may not be able to wait for so long and maybe you dont like me but its okay. hi

you know god rocks?

2008-02-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

woah god is so freaking cool i just feel like saying it :D

okay okay respect to Wen Yi i hope you are in god hands we all will miss you.

nothing much suicide.
im dying of exhaustion.
cell was cool.
gillian isnt pegnant.
the team beat ofs
amos got a deep cut
zach has a chance of losing his vision
and able got cut
i really suck at a lot of stuff
yeah thats probably it haha ;D

hi friends

2008-02-09T15:50:00.000+08:00

hmm hi abi sorry i freaked out or wtv its all fine.
omg im such a retard.. haha im quite bored....its been this way?
well pure volume rocks and so does liquorish haha :D
hmm im wonder why im trying to act so happy.
im more like -.-
oh yes this song reminds me that i spend a lot of money for some random people. but hey its not like they care.
im not angry.
oh i met this cool guy at zhen de's party pretty cool lah.
i also want to go to yan's party tonight but i dont know what time or where ^^
i just want the booze

sniffles

2008-02-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

the thought of not having you next to me.
well life is like that TIMES ARE HARD.
i think im sick so i dono whether to go to school tomorrow
today i went to some random excursion thing
im tired
im lost
i want to quit rugby
sunday school is so weird
abby you suck

if i was young

2008-01-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

i wish i was young and hip la the all the youngsters would think im cool. oh yeah women run my life. i.e. my mother teacher deputy principle girls in general too for all i know god's a gal oh my goodness im cheesed off god why woman issit that cool to have womb. sigh i just wish i were one(exaggeration you jerks)

poop seriously is a funny word

2008-01-27T17:26:00.000+08:00

listening to old songs are really nostalgic like listening to switchfoot makes me think of life in boardding school. the old hillsongs remind me of when i was sane. sugar ray reminds me of lower primary school days. so far my music is not inspiring anything in me. i took my bro's like ancient old speakers their super good though their like old looking. the homework is frightening me, like i dont know whether there's anymore if there is i feel like i will DIEEEE. so dum.ow this screen is hurting my eyes. so nothing special just that i dont know what i am in this world yeah same sama old adolescent stuff: pimples, teachers, homework, cca, friends. nothing exciting.

poop deck GiggleS

2008-01-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

i dont care about mysekf i only care that others are happy
i dont want to see myself in any photos or mirrors i dont want to be seen if i speak it is out of idioticness revealing my lack of intellegence. but still i try my best for god for my mother for friends. never for me im not worth it. its obvious does anyone else care? NO if i was anyone else i would snicker and strut off and flick dust at me.
hate me now put me on that stake
burn me
dont sympathise
you have done enough
spare me the words
im not important my life is insignificant
after this dont talk to me
spit upon me
upon my dignity if i have any
my disgusting self .
if i talk sew my mouth shut
beat me up
i am a freak.

ooh ooh sweat pea

2008-01-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

i'm back from my overseas educational trip.
and no vietnam was not fun.
i think cara is sad or whatever cause of me.
honestly i think i would rather know the truth so i could hurt them.
well that sounded cruel and unusual.
gossip about me whatever its not like i got a good reputation.
today during worship at cell my head hurt.
i think its from thinking of all the agendas i have.
i hate this there's tuition tmr D:
there is geag and e math homework.
I HATE THIS i might have to go out with my dad on sunday.
and if i know myself i wont do my homework.
sighhh.
oh yes and li en smsed me before i left for vietnam.
oh before i forget hi li ser if your reading.
like she was the only one that wished me.
it pissed me off.
it just shows how she respects me doesnt it.
i said DONT TALK TO ME.
and she smses me.
how about li en you suck go fishing.
guess what you are a player.
you are a heart breaker.
im really worried about cara sigh.
i really think she is a really cool kid.
like the only one that is remotely similar to me.
but i had to screw her up.
me--> dumb

isuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuck

for all those cool people

2008-01-10T18:53:00.000+08:00

okay if you want me to update just say you can just tag.
well recently it has been good the work pile is building though.
a maths is super fun lah.
i had tuition til 10 last night. -.- i died man
got oep tmr so like im not going to be home til 18th(its a saturday, go figure)
im going to go get my ic on the 20th of FEB ^^
oh yeah i saw yan at kap hurhur hot hur
i lost $2.30 playing poker haha. poor me right?
i dono what to pack fpr oep i lost the packing list ahaha.
bye guys

2008-01-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

Romance is Dead by Parkway Drive

The incisions is your wrist were all for show.
Just like you.
He epitome of self indulgence.
Another farce.
A charade and another set of crocodile tears.
So serenade her with your last pathetic suicide love song.
“Broken hearts never mend”.
But fools never move one.
And now she’s gone because of you.
And once again You’re the epitome of pure self destruction.
Cupid never found his mark.
As we await the insertion of blades on flesh.
You part the skin and tell of blades on blood.
So part the fucking skin.
To tell the blades on blood.
She said.
She said goodbye.
So cry me a fucking river bitch.
You wouldn’t Know love if it crushed you fucking chest.
Let go.
You wouldn’t know love if it crushed your fucking chest.
“razors, roses and a black tomorrow”
They never showed any affection to anything but your ego.
A tragedy of errors at the best of times.
You are everything that’s wrong wit me.
Youre everything that I despise.
You are everything I dreamed would die.
You are everything that fades away and slowly dies.
Will you bleed for me when suicide seems so yesterday?
Will you bleed for me?
Will you fucking bleed for me when suicide...
It's so yesterday.
It's all so fucking yesterday

thats for you li en for being such a bad person.

schools starting people

2008-01-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

okay i deleted my friendster account
got a new messenger account with only 10 contacts
i hate a lot of girls.
zhende came back from italy.
i hate school.
the teacher suckx i think.
im going vietnam for oep.
church rocked.
i play neopets.
thanks for reading peeps

he said to her

2007-12-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

let's begin the post with a story:
-storyline:the boy(joke) has been crushing on this girl(Mary) for 3/4 of a year now so this is what happens when the girl is leaving for overseas for holiday...

joke: i dont like you a lot, i love you truckloads. and i have been trying to get you to like me the same way with my dao tactics. though i dont know whether its working or not. but i just wanted to say that i dont want to just be friends with you. i want to be with you now and forever. and if you dont. i won't understand cause i know this love is real.

(this was all in sms^^, so very interesting hur? so lets see her reply!!!)

Mary: Huh? Sorry i had to go :-P

-end of story-

okay boys and girls this is to prove how much of a retard the joke is and how retarded a reply mary can give. insensitive and hurtful :D probably why i dont get girls.

anyway i coooked at my dad's house..0.0 it was like camping we ccooked steak on a hotplate. thats all guys...BYE <3>

oh baby your the devil to me

2007-12-14T19:24:00.001+08:00

oh sweetie? your the most hurtful person to me i have ever met.

i got blindsided by you i gave in to the temptation it sucks... its okay man im still, man! ^^
why did i have to get to know you in the first place? you are horrible and wonderful at the same time.

the match today was shit. "THANKS MOM FOR REMINDING ME"

smash me into a break wall i want to injure myself.

i feel fat again todayy GRRR

2007-12-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

YES PEOPLE YOU HEARD IT I FEEL FAT.

i think that is just a sign dude for all of you to watch out!!!
i might step on you with my fatness.
on behalf of the blogging crew here we would like to thank abby for reading this thing. but yes abby im still going to dao you for being to abby-like. so this is the deal, recently, abby hasn't been the only one on my dao list. they are generally all not guys cause guys i hate i dao naturally, secondly they seem to have a good network of people. thats about it. :D oh yes i went to russel ng's house and he lent me his 30 gig iPod. i realised now that my main goal of life now is an electric guitar ^^. lets go julian!

hello peeps

2007-12-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

hmpf im really bored now...so i guess im posting to past the time.so its been hard trying to keep up the full fledged christian thing.honestly i failed.see its so lousy i wish i had someone to talk to about it like a group or something.i thought of getting the class together to do the kind of thing but i just didn't try in the end.L.O.L. = lots of love

shut me up

2007-11-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

We could go and get 40s, Fuck goin' to that party, Oh really, your folks are away now?, Alright, let's go, you convinced me. 12:51 is the time my voice, Found the words i sought... Is it this stage I want? The world is shutting out...for us, We were tense for sure, But we was confident...

blinded by a idiotic craving

2007-11-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

its stupid when you want to give your all for someone.
i mean what is it for? really.
i don't know but i'm driving myself senseless with this one.
this reminds me of the stardust guy.

is it really love when the 2 people show their love?

so im just hoping at the back of my mind the statement isn't true.
i feel like i'd give anything(except religion thats the only thing i have now) for her.
she's addictive. a drug.0.o i noticed it has the same effects! spending half your holiday talking to the same person, does that mean nothing. grr, SEE now i just described a bestie
oh my. but i realllllyyy dont want to let go of her.though its like there is like this horribly obvious sign she doesn't care i guess.
cant wait until i actually can play a song on my guitar.

i dont think anyone understands me.

i'm thirsty

2007-11-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

oh my im seriously thirsty.

i wonder what colour contrasts this colour of backgroung oh well.
just a statement: mainstream sucks, forwards are the sex of the world.
oh yes we do. and another: Jodi Picoult is the shen.
wow look at the pwetty colours 8) haha
oh yes i remember now jie hui come back to training i missss youuuu.
haha how gay!! like you kenneth! ^^

forgive AND forget

2007-11-18T19:10:00.001+08:00

all my primary school life i had the mentality that its what inside that counts. it seemed like i have changed. a lot. all i care about now is what people think of me. or what they dont tell me at least. ever since secondary school started. it really sucks no matter what you think you would live your secondary school life according to the way people treat you and talk to you. you cant fight it. i just cant wait until this lifestyle is over. though it is really an experience kind of thing i cant stand it. friends are all the same all predictable. you know they will not stick with you, you know they will some how upset you in some way. betray you. that's when you realise they used you. or worse they just want you as a cheap thrill to entertain themselves. it all just boils down to -> everyone really sucks.

stardust is cool

i want E90

2007-11-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

i was just thinking yesterday that like, i don't want anything but um that someone to like me the same way.
it is like if it means the lack of a E90 or a iPod or a new computer.
i don't care at all.
i guess its stupid.

what the hell?

2007-11-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

it has been fun.
i got my textbooks, im excited about that
and then i got my guitar im so happy
thanks tim.

2007-11-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

Nobody wants him He just stares at the world.

hi people
it seems most of you are just not talking to me
so yeah.
weirdly enough im not angry at that
that was yesterday
now im happy on the count of music
and joey + mattias.
0.0 i nvr thought i would ever say that.
well people times are hard.

screw the innocent save the wealthy

went out with abel, amos, stan and joel yap.
very uneventful
though to me the highlight of it was the longjohnsilvers.
that is really sad isn't it.
anw to more important matters,
sorry jess for being a bit the tao.
and Li En thirsday is ons.

Nobody helps him now he has his revenge.

you see that revenge yeah man!
ya'll watch out asses

2007-11-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

Hello Julian:) I'm Charmaine!
i hacked into your blog account. :D
anyway Dude(ette) seriously just smile. I think I told you before how to smile.
1.Put your hand inside your mouth (not be be bulimicxD)
2. Turn UP the corners.

or if that does not work. GO TO 2 CORINTHIANS (: or eat ice cream at island creamery.

and your friends do care. YOU HAVE GOD TOO, AND ME! yay! I know I'm such a nice friend. hahaha okay no more ego-ing. we're supposed to be GOOL PEOPLE. great and cool.

since when was i so lame. okay BYE.

2007-11-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

everything seems to be going wrong right now.
but its okay like who cares right.

2007-11-05T10:09:00.000+08:00

shiiitttttt
i droppedddd my laptop
im so freaking screwed
gggrrrrr
noooo
i dont want to die early
sigh
this sucks
and everybody hates me
and what can i do abt it?
nth
so mow im getting
daoed too
its okay man
im the 'lone ranger'
forever destined
to travel the face of the earth
alone
no one to help
no one to be with him
just me and my donkey
sigh it really
sucks

2007-11-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

hi Abby though your like all flustered and stuff and all you need to relax? though i don't know whats happening to you... first it was being extra then i heard stories about defending rachael's being. then a lot of stuff. so though recently i haven't been a good friend i want to be one now? i think, omg this is so disgusting. so even though you will refuse the help i will try to help you get back on your sober streak.

2007-10-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

Life Report Book
Name: Julian Chang
Age(of 2007): 14
Sex: Male
Occupation: Student
Marital Status: Single
Allergies: Penecilin
Attitude: Pathetic
Character: Shy
Intelligence: Severly Below Average
Appearance: u-grade
Height: unsuitably tall
Religion: Christian
Purpose: Roaming the land...

2007-10-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

im going 3.3 next yea. stupid KAVITA i swear you going to piss my ass off. russell see you watch out

2007-10-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

to abby if she actually would read it. im sorry ok zz what did i do larh.

To William,
grr um it just isn't working.
at the back of my mind,
i cant stop thinking about being with you.
it maybe the people around me,
but i want you in my arms so badly.
:\ i know sucks right.
P.S. YOU, no one else dudett.

2007-10-17T20:09:00.000+08:00

hmpf got 73% average. i feel like i don't care -.- right so tarded.

2007-10-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow the results are coming out there is a big chunk of me hoping that i would get good results.
though in reality its impossible.
then something in me knows that god can provide me with the marks.
well god issit going to be realistic or a miracle.

To: William

im sorry i wasted your time

2007-10-14T19:10:00.000+08:00

to set the record this blog is for reasons to express my pissyness.

To William

you made me happy,
you made me pissed,
you made me sad,
your the best thing have experienced,
your the only 1,
no one else can take your place,
you opened my eyes to things unknown,
you carried my head when i was down,
you are stubborn,
you are so smart,
you made me realise im a loser,
but thats okay,
i never saw your face before,
you made me feel used,
you made me "die" for you,
i did not mind,
you taught me how to STUDY x),
you lie too much.

thats why i love you,
you were my first true love,
i realised the others were fake,
they dont love me like you,
i tried to forget you before,
but i cant,
your all think about,
though i know im not good enough for you,
you are the sanity in me,
im sorry i love you,
i always knew you would never love me.

2007-09-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

did you ever feel god's a agenda in your life and you never meant him to be that way...

2007-09-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

feel
taste
touch
haha i thought that sounded emotional

well im feeling it again man
haha emoness
i feel like shit but no more
i gtg wake up for church TMR

2007-08-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

i honestly think that this gift might be a jinx
i can appreciate any person
as long as i get to know him
maybe 1st impressions not so good
i can find something good and love them for it
and im not refering to A girl it works for guys too
and honestly i dont know its special or wtv
but i dont like it

2007-08-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

its water on the bridge its water on the bridge lord.

2007-08-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

im not surprised if he doesnt put me on tomorrow
im not surprised if we loose tmr
im not surprised if i fail history
im not surprised if i dont get to ib
im not surprised if i dont fail my average

am i scared of it?
yes

can i handle the pressure?
maybe

is it a sin?
i dont really know.

2007-08-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

you know wat i givvveee upppsss
sigh
if i get into ib
just for kicks i'll not play rugby

2007-08-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

look at it.
people say it looked good.
but the game sucked.
i got literature exam tmr...
i hope im not weird.
i probably am.
but is it so hard not to feel loved?
for me it isnt.
honostly, when you look fugly. and dont sound cool you become cast away.
its driven me crazy but its likde that :D.

2007-08-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

i think im becoming gay
that is all

2007-08-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

hahaha right now thats behind uss.

i feel like the world just goes by.
its so fun
i mean if i didnt have to do anything
i would just enjoy myself with friends
sit there and see how people can be happy
and it makes me smile
that people can be happy
at anything at all
especially when their with someone
it looks like a celebrations of hapiness

title

2007-07-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

its these weekends that make me think what im supposed to do.
when everyone else has their agendas.
when i just watch television.
when theres nothing to watch.
when the messenger does not look friendly.
when everyone is not bothered with you.
when you just got nth to do.
when no one asks you out.
when you ponder if people care.
when you just...wait, wait for that person to reply.
when that music is just too bland.
when i just don't like the thought of school.
when i just think if anyone but my maid in the house knows me at all.
when i just don't really think about god.
when people are nothing.
when my minds a blank.
when i'm feeling fat.
when i just sit...
when i know there's something amiss with me and my style of life.
or when i'm just blogging.

2007-07-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

sigh
today rugby sucked so much i dont want to talk about it.
but the thing is i listened to bubbles iPod
so i listened to the sermon
then i listened to the spiritual happiness
or smth about hapiness
though the woman was not good at speaking
to be honest it was a bit entertaining and
i actually understood wht she was saying
and the point of it
was that you cant let anything bite at you
because you drink from the well
of the spoils or like pleasures or happiness
i dono larh and it is a well of it
so like you are constantly because god is happy

so like i did badly for rugby then im like damn flustered so like
the point of the sermon was dont let life get you down cuz your in the joy of the lord. so i get it now i learnt today :D

2007-07-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

omfg i hate your kind of people.
i know you know a lot of people ok?
dont have to be like -DAO-
yeah ok lorh i loser i suck.
you s insensitive man.

lol.
what i learnt in history today..
you must be sensitive to religion haha.
i havent bathed from school. like EWWW.

omg art art art you got me worried.
i <33333333 the radio.
your tunes are ownage hahhaaha.

omg the ib showers got heater!
omg it feels so good
it is better than my house i swear man
no fooling.
and that time shu en, like WTVR. lol
nice meeting you though did not really meet
hahaha
makes no sense.

hmm. ok.

2007-07-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

i would like to put a constant unproven theory about people with white hair.
like me.
there are 3 reasons for the phenomenon.
shyness, isolation and pure smarts.
there is the fourth stress but that is common and boring.

shyness.
touchy subject shy.
yes shy why else would people not be friendly you look like Einstein dick.
and no he is not hot.
this is also excepted as cowardlyness.

isolation.
you sit at home.
it does not matter you do it in a sport, reading a book, watching television, playing computer games, studying( i do not know what for), doing nothing at all etc.
it all can give you white hair.
this would contribute to your shyness.

pure smarts.
smart people = a lot of people.
look at court why do you wear a wig?
your honourable.
and smart.

you only need one of the points to get it however must be major.

finally these points may be ignored if your purely stressed.
these points provide stress too.

2007-07-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

arh tonight is going to be interesting my eye lids are getting heavy. i did not go to caltex after cell. feels very loner. today there was a guy at shot putt that threw 16m the record was 15.54m. beyond godlike. iron maiden.

2007-07-02T20:24:00.001+08:00

"Hey There Delilah"Hey there DelilahWhat's it like in New York City?I'm a thousand miles awayBut girl tonight you look so prettyYes you doTimes Square can't shine as bright as youI swear it's trueHey there DelilahDon't you worry about the distanceI'm right there if you get lonelyGive this song another listenClose your eyesListen to my voice it's my disguiseI'm by your sideOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meWhat you do to meHey there DelilahI know times are getting hardBut just believe me girlSomeday I'll pay the bills with this guitarWe'll have it goodWe'll have the life we knew we wouldMy word is goodHey there DelilahI've got so much left to sayIf every simple song I wrote to youWould take your breath awayI'd write it allEven more in love with me you'd fallWe'd have it allOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meA thousand miles seems pretty farBut they've got planes and trains and carsI'd walk to you if I had no other wayOur friends would all make fun of usand we'll just laugh along because we knowThat none of them have felt this wayDelilah I can promise youThat by the time we get throughThe world will never ever be the sameAnd you're to blameHey there DelilahYou be good and don't you miss meTwo more years and you'll be done with school And I'll be making history like I doYou'll know it's all because of youWe can do whatever we want toHey there Delilah here's to youThis ones for youOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you do to meWhat you do to me.

2007-07-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

im so emo haha.
i think i got too much free time on my hands.
and since im not like everyone else.
i'm fated i'm fated to be bad at everything.
i think i am dumb, suck at computer games, cant play sports, am loner and im fat ugly and repulsive.
so who cares about what i think you guys think it already probably why i think it now.
i am not really mad at you all but its me i am thinking you all do but its me im just bad wrong and stupid.
i just hope god will bless me.

2007-06-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

point(s) of observation(s):

firstly i would like to point out that i have posted 3 times altogether that is horribly discusting.

secondly i observe that people stare at you more if your hot, i find that very discusting\bitchy yes.

2007-06-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

arrhhhh
i think im born to live life with no close friends
or im too screwed up
so this is fun
i have spent at least 1/5 or 1/6 of my life watching television or playing a computer
1/2 or 1/3 of the time in school
and 1/10 or 1/11 in cca or tuition
i know it does not add up but yup
14 years of all that
and sleeping
which just dulls the boredom
you start to think about what am i living for?
so i escaped to music
but now?
i lost my grandmother fishing iPod!
ok ppl thx for not trying to read this nonsense

2007-06-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

we should get jerseys because we make a good team but yours will look better than mine because your out of my league.

i'm a fool for you

wtv this is all bye bye

2007-06-12T13:44:00.000+08:00

o o o.
i am out i am stone.
rugby.
i am going to go to perth,
in a few hours.
and im not going to,
spend those hours trying not to say bye to anyone.
you know?
why?
i guess you would want to know either.
heartless fools.
well i will tell you.
hoping that your ears will bleed.

why im not saying good bye?
i am not going to MISS you.
figures since i never liked you.

i've been thinking.
if i die on the trip.
i might go to hell.
for obvious reasons.
but i was thinking.
if i love him just to save myself.
i am hypocritical
and a bluff.

well
i guess through te good imes and bad eh?
good blogskins are damn hard to find.
i do not want to like anyone.
literally and figurativelly
i do not want to trust any one.

i just got a game for losers who nvr can get steadies.
lets contest to see how many best friends of the opposite sex you can get.
just tag the numbers at my tagboard.

i know anyone who in their right mind reading this stopped ready

see you on the floor seeing my brain lose blood

2007-06-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

mm
hanibal is cool.
ok
this is it man
im am not
too much of a fool
i will stop.
and thx to the trip i will try.
hm
i bet all of you
cant tell what im saying.
ok i dont really care.

2007-06-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

o i havent blogged in a long time lol...no
hehehe im bored again people.
(big surprise why else would i be blogging)
well i lost my personal diary.
sux
i think its in my locker.
well.
hmm.
this is fun..
malling was fun today!..
um.
yeah.
didnt go out...
i went to vivo for 10 minutes and came all the way back.
because SOME peoples fathers was stalking them.
then their hi card also run out of money
then only inform me when im at DHOBY GHAUT.
(i stay at newton,
imbetween orchard and i dono,
and close to bukit timah road)

2007-06-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

why do i even care what you think.........

2007-06-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

ok right now i so pissed i dono at what but i just hate it.
i feel a fire emerging from my gullet.
my throat is warm.
i want to hurt someone.
wow.
hmmm.
i dont get myself either.
bitch.
i hate you so badly.
i want you to rot infront of my eyes.
but then i dont.
because it would seem inhumane.
but hell thats only because the normal requires less crime.
its only inhumane because we think a life is precious and no should die.
if i am human and i think i should kill a person it is pretty human.
am i not wrong?
so screw.
but i dont...
why?
because HELL.
im too retarded.
so need to keep my bitches close to me.
if one goes so does the troop.
i hate this age.
well give life kick hor?.

2007-05-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

lol.
you know i've been hurting inside?
hehehehe.
you did not care.
i think you too selfish.
all you care is yourself.
well.
this has been a big phase and i hope,
you dont hate me enough so we're friends.
.

haha
i guess i will try to laugh it off.
hmm.
seaweed shaker fries are nice.

oh well i fell far.
just to go for you.
now im trying to get up.
but i dont think its going to be easy.
its hard to go back to religion now.
though i want to.

2007-05-25T10:43:00.000+08:00

i dont like you. but without you im useless. and i know if i dao you you dont care about me enough. if im sad do you try to help me? no you just go somewhere else. why cant i just tell you? cuz i like you? but i wont tell you cuz im not even your best friend? i wait on you but you just find other ways...you just leave me stranded. i got out on this island. i tried to follow you on your boat you just couldnt help? see you do know what is going on. o so you dont care. your just like everyone else. i thought you were different but you dont really care. you just want to make fun of me? well now im hurtin'? so your happy? anot hurhur? gogo just go larh go larh. well im just alive to entertain you right? you dont even respect me enough to go out? ok larh im just another guy chasing. i give up. i will try to let go.

2007-05-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

ow my heart hurts.
seriously as in the organ,heart.?
i've been eating too much sh*t.
just reminds me that i can die early.
is that a good thing?
i mean i might go to heaven earlier.
or go hell earlier.
blogging is good to waste time.
brazil nuts are nice man.
its super funny.
i wanted to go out a lot before exams.
but then now i don feel like it.
i just realise how waste of time it is.
when you dont really like the company.
then also my results suck.
well i did not go church.
couldnt be bothered.
wish i did though.
but i hate being late lorh.

im just drifting now to what i might have to do like soon i have to go out with father?
yah

2007-05-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

lets see.
you swept me off my feet.
then you were my best friend.
you befriended me unlike any other.
i loved you.
and turned out i was wrong.
so now your just you.my best friend.

me?
i am everyones bestie MAN.

2007-05-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

dont play with me.
dont test me or i'll rip your head off.

teach me to cry.

2007-05-17T21:32:00.000+08:00

hello this is a presentation of who i am(specimen only):

``~Hellosa!!~``

Thks fer adding worhs..

hmMmm..

Mind tuh introos mahhs??

~Lalalalalas``

lorts Lurbes;;

Xiiao meii fengg -xMelisaX-

Loves euu foreva!! muhahaha

(end)
see i rock! my english good good.
3 doors down!
!AUDIOSLAVE!
Nickleback!

2007-05-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

im lonely but its ok?
yay im starting to play maple again.
LOL.
>.<.
so dumb game lorh!
no larh is just that i suck-.-"
i do at all games lah! :(
i just got so badly phooned at cs just n ow.
then my maple account only level 15 leh!
im a disgrace to my family!

2007-05-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

bitch.
i lost my wallet.
im so pissed its not funny.
you bitch!
wallet so ass.
i do not want to lose my wallet.
seriously.
i get fuck load of shit from mom if i do.
fish.
my mother cowing ez-link larh!
bloody hell.

2007-05-11T18:09:00.000+08:00

...
people are starting to think i do(unmentionable).
FucKing shauna khoo.
see even bulldog ask me dumb question.
you all suck!
why i nvr tell you what i feel.
cause you all suck balls.
bastard banana sucking people.
you can spread it all you want,
like butter on toast ALL you want.
i smack your balls hormone monkeys.
screw you all, fish mongers!
you all are VERY smelly.
if i stood from half the world away i can smell you.
so stop smelling feet.
and know that your armpits are worse.
beiatchhhh....

sincerely yours. permanent bestie
no ones bitch. nvr will be. :|

2007-05-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

`im just friend.
do we all start out as that?
whats wrong?

do i care too much about how you feel?
am i not full of myself enough for you?
oh shit now i too ego larh?
harharhar.
that retard too funny?
too friendly?

oh just perfect.
my new bestie.
not anything else.

test drive hell no.

2007-05-09T19:32:00.000+08:00

i'm lost for words.
i do not kno...
i yah.
i need some bata shoes.
but the ones they make now.
look tooo nice and new.
need to have retro look.
:P.
well confidence.
is what i lack.
my fault.
i shall work on it people.
wow.
i DONt study well in a group.
so useless.
so crouded at starbucks.
AND cold.
gods bless me in my life sciences.
fall out boi addict.me.

yours truly help me pls.

2007-05-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

i am desperate.
i'm listening to fall out boy.
for heaven's sake.
haiya.

i do not want it to stop.
i love it larh.
its addictive.
not doing it is painful.
heart pain.lol.
:P.
especially in this time of tribulation.
D:.

save me now.
no one.
from your self centered friend.

exams pls fly by.
lets go flybar!
you guys rock!

you rock is that what you want to hear?
hurhur!?
ass.
just need to shout?

2007-05-08T18:52:00.000+08:00

wow man made my day.
for like 1 hour.hmm
hello people.
well feeling like lost today.
i also do not know.
so erm yeah.

you know those people that are easy to forget.?
the people that you know you can trust to be
there?
you don't really pay attention to?
those you think are losers and don't care if
they can hold up.
not your good friend or worst friend either?
just another pwn on the chestboard?
that is me friends.
and im lovin' the position.

2007-05-07T18:52:00.000+08:00

hey people.
your my peeps.
i trust that no one follows this blog.
dogs are cute :P.
i kena very drained out leh.
how to study i also do not know.
my mother piss.
lonely world?
no/hell no.
i donno what it is.
just not lonely.
i lie compulsively.

2007-05-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

how deep is your love?
by the beegees.
thats rocks baby.
sorry guys lol.
its been fun.
haiz.
tears on my pillow.
lol.
i started a really dumb friendster.
and then add very random ppl.
just watch out for me if i add you.
the name is 'Matheus Hok Moi'.

2007-04-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

oh my pong!
i think i just heard a phase of the audioslave.
the song erm...lemme check.
doesnt remind me.
wa piang it says "i love speaking in tongues".
you know they could be tongues of the devil?.
so satanic!
but their guitar is good.
but satanic om fong! lol

2007-04-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

eh you fishing biatch.
you stop it k.
dumb ass.
you only care for me,
during exams issit?
well then go fly kite larh.

warh harhar.
you and i both by jason mraz rocks all.
so nice.

haiz i hate guys.
or well aor hormones i guess.
now i know why in movie,
the guy will cheat USUALLY.
(you idiots so petty about everything)
yah larh.
every time can like a lot of,
gurl, at same time.
it is crazy.
-.-" i have to go out for dinner.
I don want.
okok i gtg F*CKING MOTHER ASS.

2007-04-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

the stongest faith is blind faith.

if you know that something is there you have faith.

but then you will trust it is there always.

then you do not care of the person who produced it,

you just care about the product.

but then this faith is not so big.

when people cannot see.

their faith wavers sometimes.

the pros' and cons' of everything in the world.

2007-04-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

hello world.
bored as usual.
i just posted a blog at me class blog.
its pretty ko.0l.
i guess.
tim neo started it.
gold lions going to tell me where the light is.
take our hands out of control.
my mom pisses the hell out of my socks during,
exam period.
i donno.
hmm.
i once said life no kick.
i donno whether true anot.
i donno whether i pampered or not.
argh i hate a lotto things.
i just want to get angry.
i do not cause im so good.
a bit ego but true.
i need some way of getting it out.
pls.
i forgot to go CELL.
i want to cry but i cant.
i think im too insencitive!
>.<.
o yeah thx tim neo for sending me your songs they rock soooo badly.
-be my krptonite-'
i thought you would say no, beeee otch!
my mom too, stupid fitch.

2007-04-24T21:23:00.000+08:00

no body said it was easy... i am actually tired.
lolxD
i feel like talking to ice queen now.
What?!
i nvr said i hated hurhur.
i just didnt like whats wrong with me?
yah i just refuse to sit down and study thats all.
my heart hurts its so borring.
i watched the insight on joss stone.
it was pretty fun you know.
seems like a cool person.
well the game today against uwc was fun.
we are HORRIBLY ofform.
we need to get together better.
the culture of my year of students.
they would poke the guy right?
how he likes a gal or she likes you?
so yeah nvr make it public.
so i cant be bothered to tell,
anyone i like them cause it will be very foolish
on my part in the way dudus.
i bend my back too much its hurting.
o yeah i know why my hearts hurting.
well i know i do some thing then i neglect god.
yeah.): ?

2007-04-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

hi.friends
brothers and sisters.
i seem to want lonerness.
lol but i still try to relate to ppl.
im so despod.
ok hi people.
if you notice i update my blog again.
yah more often you know why ?
queen of pain and ice.
i used to call 'er bff
but yah.
im not pissed with her just.
the way it is.
now i know not to-
trust people too much.
not like i did
before but more now.
when i fall there is no mortal
there to catch me.
unless i feel like talking
to my misunderstanding mom.
(not that fun)
dudes dudetts i am not your
friend, not even close to your saviour.
i can be your foe, i just
do not know who i am or need.
i know i am a rugger
athlete
student
sleeper
church goer
sleeper.
and i think i am ignoring god.
which is very sad.
o0ops this blog is making it worse.
wow windows outlook sux.
i wanna know whether you'll be my girl.
she'll probably say no
i am so glad?
should i be glad.
should i fullfill a life of unhappiness
which so far i have been failing?
or should i live one of jubilee?
i dont like it so far its been up and down.
i DO not like these cheap thrills
and their not cheap they're
last so short too
bb your emo bro from the pit of stupidness

2007-04-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

hello friends romans and countrymen.
muhahahaahahehehe spirits are always wit YOU.
sorry needed to get that out.
my head hurts must be the baileys.
i cant beleive after about only 3 small cups.
i dont get it i donno whether my head is working.
i actually have to do my maths Ex 2d now but.
do i look the guy who..cares
well yes but heck roght?! har har.
i'm going to save the rest of the cup for later.
i donno whather to say something.
now i kow not to, im a slow thinker.
o i think the drummer from killers looks super cool.
and erm the drum beats the bravery make is awesome.
training was fun, i'm a bit irritated with myself.
i wished i pushed harder.
lol the pain in my head comes and goes.
-+=()=+-i'm not depressed just feel no one cares-+=()=+-
so doesnt every0ne else that say they emo.
well i donno. it is wrong and sinful to emod.
but the thing is there is not really a problem with emoding.
well then it is not really for me. im not emo.
i just do not think of it then i do not really care.
but then i eventually think of it again.
i have a liking fetish its created from my emodishtation.
i think i like some one but i dont yah,.,.,.
after the mini phase i still only like that one but she's too____
i donno don ask me that was (not like your going to-ass)
i do not really make a move because i do not want to be humiliated?
yah thx internet for listening.

why do they need people to write a title for blogs?

2007-04-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

hurhurhur so bored -.- isnt that the reason i made the bloody thing?
hmm i wonder whether bloody is a bad word.
then again what is a bad word?
what did the word ever do to you?
did it try to kill you?
no i do not think so. However
i think it kills your person or personality.
why it is bad? its only the 'good' words that make you sound,
like a good or mature person.

o yeah yesterday i changed my blogskin.
its supposed to be a toilet paper skin.
but does it look like it? no
but it still looks cool and simple.

haiz hmm i wonder what i should do now.
i dont want to go out with dad i'm really
tired talked til too late hehehe
but i did not really want to stop talking.

lol i am watching at power rangers
pretty amusing its dumb
but very very entertaining.
i am so sad i cant entertain people.
i want to cry i'm such a bad person.

i thought i got shot putt event today too
but turn out do not have so yeah.
o yeah i want you people to think...
do not let your culture disappear.
we must learn home economics
learn to put on diper learn to cook
for the family. hehe i'm so dumb.
but seriously this is important.

if we do not do this we will die and everything around us. so yeah hahaha? :) be happy people i do not like sad people!

OVER AND OUT

juju in the hixouz

2007-04-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

i'm back i'm bak no applause pls.
so sorry i've been out of action at my blog for such a long time,
dudes/dudetts, i am not as emo and deep thinker now so...
yah. though i feel it is weird now that i listen to jay chou.
lol i think it is to help me keep calm.
this is hard to beleive since i dont understand him,
since it is in chinese yes? and the fact i do not study chinese.
lol. i dono y ppl like to be linked anyway i help my classmates link.

hehe me and preston are cunning that time we made a pretend letter
to SUEANNE *hint*(daniel CHOO!)*hint* from um some one,
*hint*(daniel CHOO!)*hint again*.lol
hehe i'm soo bored -.-".

school nth much rugby we losing fitness then what else?
um well my mum cancell my tuition without telling me,
yesterday to today and i was pretty pissed. yah
hmm awkward here lol.

HEY i am skipping time to do maths hw to do this OK,
apreciate that i'm not a bubble posting every 2 full moons K
XD maybe he's worse than that.
o.0 hoho yah i got 12 minutes for my 2.4km run.
(now you can aplaud me) lol egoness is an aura that is felt now.

thx for listening guys hehehehe i bet the only people who read my blog are the no life classmates of mine they study very HARD k lol. hi guys you taro so tall haiya.

OVER AND OUT

shortie

2007-03-26T21:26:00.000+08:00

lol this blog is not titled shortie to insult the dream couple(keith khoo and trisha lee). it just means im slacking. training was hard today not like last wednesday not bad enough.

what afriend i have in jesus

2007-03-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

do not dao me please just tell me i wont talk to you anymore.
i mayhave made a wrong turn.
i did not know.
just needed to take a shoulder i could rest on.
your burden is lightened with the self willing retreat.

o well jesus will always be there. hehe. when i was running 1.6km after a very tiring field work session with jock. said to lord our god and in shaqness i said' wa god very tiring leh, pls help me through the run carry me through.' hehe. 'i very tired still talk to you you know how much energy wasted thinking?'. sounds silly but then after putting it to him i could not think anymore.

i tried pumping it but then the pain got worse. haha is ok i know god meant it thAT WAY HAHA but really pain this morning. i never felt that type of pain in a long time. i loved it i missed it i adored every bit of it. the pain so refreshing haha. sounds so wrong.

it was refreshing to talk to friends last night even for just 5 minutes. i think my hunger for friends words in time of talkless times is just for me to know that people would take time to talk or even just notice me at all. so haha.

i keep laughing that cara lah tell me to say lol a lot on msn now i cant stop doing it lol. see lol!? haha.(again). no hard feelings c. your name hard to pronounce hurhur so just say c. i just realised during that training how easy it is to forget that you do it for god. harz i think need to pray before traINing too.

sincerely your laughaholick jujuXD
over and out