its these weekends that make me think what im supposed to do.
when everyone else has their agendas.
when i just watch television.
when theres nothing to watch.
when the messenger does not look friendly.
when everyone is not bothered with you.
when you just got nth to do.
when no one asks you out.
when you ponder if people care.
when you just...wait, wait for that person to reply.
when that music is just too bland.
when i just don't like the thought of school.
when i just think if anyone but my maid in the house knows me at all.
when i just don't really think about god.
when people are nothing.
when my minds a blank.
when i'm feeling fat.
when i just sit...
when i know there's something amiss with me and my style of life.
or when i'm just blogging.