haiz sian last night so sianded i listen to the same song the whole night before i slept i donno why i so like that i want to be happy always but then, today it was crazy god must have dirrected my eyes to see the thought of the day: 'happiness is not a destination it is a day to day experience'.

i agreed with the thought though i am not pulling it off, i keep thinking something interesting in a good way is supposed to happen to me.i dont think that really bothered me or wavered my faith then there was this art lesson sort of really almost killed me i am supposed to draw about 2 full pages of two views out of 6.

THATS crazy the woman(teacher) talked as though so simple then i did not even the 6 views were supposed to be related to each other, crazy.it was ok for the rest of the day the slack teachers were today especially when we finish school at 12.40.

THEN the geog teacher came out ok she was going out the tests with the results right. then before she said, 4 failures rest past 8 got 18 plus. ok loh i knew i was not in the failures. come out the people before me happy good results i get mine i see got 4 i am like wtf to myself,i am one of the failures.

4 out of 20 leh if i want to go intergrated programme i needed a 15 out of 20 i don even think i can catch up with the average for the next test. o.0ps that was my dad on the phone where was i oh ya...so yupyup i will give up from now on. i was depressed bout my art marks too i got like 54. so yup i am very depressed i am so pissed at something or somrone, fortunately or unfortunately i know why i got that bad a grade its god, if yo love him for all the good things the bad things are probably him too.

well i am actually skipping cell right now. i did not tell you bout the second part of the geog results. when i accumilated the marks i got 6 and a half when i asked the teacher she made the 7 more prominent then my heart had a 1kg brick of the 1 ton load. i boasted about my marks i did so well no one did worse than me or from allt he people i gather my information from.

so it will be decided by me that i will go to normal technical in some cock school and try to drop out then get screwed by the world. my mother PMS bb

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